How do I get myself in these situations?
Here is the background.
For the last few months, we have been exploring the whole issue of how to receive. A lot of what people send my way is no gift at all. That breeds a certain resistance to the whole issue. Yet, we had a deep sense that we were off track as a company.
After bumbling around for awhile, discussing it randomly periodically, we realized we were not making any progress. So we blocked off two hours one day for the team to explore what making progress would look like.
We bumbled around aggressively for two hours and got nowhere in terms of discovering what the problem was, what right was, and how we would get from here to there. Three strikes by any count.
I finally had a Holy Spirit moment at the end and proposed that for the next three weeks, we would not ask God for anything. We would simply invite Him once to give us whatever He wanted.
The objective of this simple exercise was to find out if things would look different if He were giving us what He wanted to give us, instead of what we wanted Him to give us.
It has certainly been a fascinating journey as some of the things we have asked for repeatedly in the past that He has not given us, He gave us now. But much more interesting are all of the things He has brought our way that we never would have thought to ask for, but it mattered a lot to Him.
We are learning a lot about a Father’s heart in this journey.
However, smack dab in the midst of that, I posted a blog requesting you to pester God on my behalf to give me the revelation He has not seen fit to give me hitherto in my life.
By any standard, that was a flagrant violation of the deal we had established with God.
So where was my head that day?
It wasn’t until this morning that I suddenly realized the preposterousness of the whole thing. I refrain from asking God for something, but ask hundreds of you to ask for me. How ridiculous is that?
So now, how do we fix it?
Do I instruct you all to stop praying?
After all, none of you were doing wrong by joyously leaning into the problem with me. You had no idea the deal I had made with God.
Do I just ignore it?
This is like Saul and Jonathan.
Saul made a vow that none of his people were to eat until the end of the battle, and Jonathan did. Even though he did not know about the vow, God clearly held him responsible when they cast lots for the sin he did not know he was committing.
And having you all shrug it off and say it is no big deal isn’t the solution either. That is what Israel did, overriding God’s determination. That laid the foundation for some real leadership problems in later years.
What did God want in that situation? Did he really want Saul to kill his son for eating some honey?
And what does God want here? I didn’t have a specific penalty attached to disobedience, since I wasn’t planning to disobey.
I would ask God what to do about my disobedience but I think that would be disobedience right now.
How do I get myself into these situations?